Impostor!

they are watching me,

they are watching me

they are going to find out

they are going to hate me

i can see their eyes just now looking at me

in disappointment

as all the things they thought i was, was a lie

that i lied

i said i like yellow when i like red

i said i like tea when i really came for coffee

i said i sleep early when I hoot for a living

i said i meditate when in fact i pray

yes, my friend, i pray

five times a DAY

but it's one and the same,

yet i can never seem to explain

and i knew you would judge me

i know im weird

but constant feedback from an atmosphere of normality hits me

it hits me

i climb trees, but not when you're there

i dance in glee, but not when you're there

when you're there i sit in a perfect 90

and nothing can make me move

i will sweat,

i will feel my limbs give way

i will be in internal agony,

just wishing i could scream to drive some of the awkward

AWAY

but i won't

i will sit there

as i always do

they must not know

that i am one of those people who also mutter the phrase, "i am not okay"

because that's gotten so redundant, so cool, in the other line of every muffled song

i'm not OK

always said passively

with the intention of making everyone know

that you're not

okay

because I'm not that

no, no, no I'm not that

I'm not that!

I'm normal

i am not guilty

I SAID IM NOT GUILTY

AAAAAAARGHH

I'm done i'm done I'm done just arrest me already give me a hearing, say case closed, the penalty is for first degree, since the second she was born